Battleangel | Personal

Apologies for dropping off the radar. I just got so fed up with everything, these journals included. I guess the quitter attitude that I am rather famous for finally got the better of me. Not to say that I regret anything, on the contrary, my beliefs are stronger than ever before, my conviction unshaken. It’s just that it dawned on me how petty and pointless these journals really were in that nothing ever came of them. I mean, to the best of my knowledge they never changed the course of history. Meanwhile, the world just kept descending into darkness. It became a total information overload, a constant bombardment of bad news as it were. Over time, the more I came to know about the world, the more I could map and understand, the more apathetic I became. The futility of it all dawned on me rather late I suppose, and in retrospect I am surprised how long I held on to idealism and hope.

So it’s ta-ta for now I suppose. Perhaps I will muster the rage to fight another day, as we draw closer to the abyss and good men are called upon.